Posted by McKenzie DeCoite
on March 01, 2021
If I could describe my breastfeeding journey in one word it would be “powerful”. I never knew how much the woman's body was capable of until I gave birth to my daughter Lavender who is now one year and we are still going strong! I've learned so much and educated myself so well being a first-time mom that blissfully my journey has come easy, but wait that doesn't mean I haven’t struggled. “Where there is no struggle, there is no progression”. I just looked at mine positively and embraced every struggle knowing it would be worth it in the end!
First few days in the hospital went by so fast everything went by so fast…but that first latch was amazing I felt so connected with my daughter I didn’t want anyone to talk to me I just wanted to be left alone with her in that moment. Her latch wasn’t perfect I bled for the next 3 weeks and groaned in pain during nursing sessions, trying to get my nipple shields to stay on until I finally made the decision that something was not right. I started to excessively pump for about 2 weeks (thank you lord for pumping bras). My daughter was given a bottle for every feeding! So many sleepless nights pumping and mornings waking up feeling like I had just peed on myself because of how much my breast leaked. It felt like I was pumping 24/7 nonstop, and oh don’t get me started on trying to find something to wear that was breastfeeding friendly. Like come on I don’t have that big ole belly no more and I still can’t wear what I want! It started to get overwhelming, I felt sad, because I no longer had my life, lonely because I felt like I was the only one putting in all this hard work to do what's best for lavender with no one to talk to because no one could understand what I was feeling. My birth control hormone side effects and symptoms weren’t making the situation any better either! But that's a whole different story. My husband couldn’t understand these things I was going through only a mother who’s experienced what I am, so he tried his best to be there for me but all he could do was listen.
I tried my best to keep a smile on my face and be happy for my daughter so she didn’t have to see me like that. I knew she could feel my sad energy anyway. Moving forward to after my breast healed, I tried again. I used all types of resources online to make sure I was doing everything right and putting Lavender in the right position. We were able to get a good latch and I knew because it didn’t hurt while nursing! The first thing that came to my mind was “wow I’m literally on YouTube right now trying to figure this out …..(shoutout to these major social media platforms, taught me everything I know) no one in the hospital asked if I was breastfeeding … it wasn’t talked about and no lactation specialist came to talk to me or help either. When I asked they told me it was upon request. I feel as though a specialist should be in the room right after birth to help and I believe this is why so many women don’t breastfeed because there isn’t that much support like there should be! Once my daughter got a good latch it felt amazing. I had finally figured it out but of course in this journey things get thrown at you unexpected. I remember trying to breastfeed my daughter one night after I had been mastering it for some time but she would not latch. I started to have this horrible feeling that I wasn’t producing enough for her. I was worried, confused, angry. Like ‘please baby stop crying” I would whisper over and over but still she was just not having it. I felt tempted looking at those “just in case” (which is what my nurse called it) formula bottles. Asking my husband “baby, should I?” “I really don’t want to”, and of course he doesn't understand why I don’t. Come to find out she had gases and was tired, which is why she was so fussy! I was so glad a didn’t give in to those bottles and listened to my babys signs!
As you can see that was a huge struggle that came my way; I was so confused. I knew that once I gave in and gave her the formula that my breastfeeding journey would come to an end. Like thinking about it, I would've seen how easy it was to just give her a bottle. Soon after I got a good hang of things! I'd gotten used to my pumping sessions and sleep deprivation. I would pump on one and nurse on the other and I did that until I had almost 2000 ounces in my deep freezer which was for when I had to go back to work which was postponed due to COVID. Then 4 months later my pump broke and I started hand expressions until after a while Lavender was big enough to just feed on both and I didn't have to pump anymore thank God.
My journey at this point was amazing! I felt “powerful”. I had accomplished something that a lot of women can’t accomplish. I never gave up when I got let down and only was able to pump two ounces in a whole pumping session. I never gave up when I couldn’t sleep while everyone else slept, I never gave up when my nipples were blistered and bleeding! I had established a good amount of supply and pumping wasn’t necessary. I literally would just pull my boob out and feed. Then……. my daughter got her first teeth at 5 months and this is my current struggle at a year with eight teeth now, telling her not to bite my nipple off! I’m sure we still have long ways to go but I’m so grateful I even got this far, and the journey continuessssssssssss.
Follow Alexus Scott's on IG @lexicx_ for more motherhood stories!
606 comments
Hello everyone I want to use this Medium to say big thank you to GLOBAL ACCESS RECOVERY for they helped me recover my stolen crypto worth $60,000 through their hacking skills. I tried it, I was skeptic but it worked and I got my money back. I’m so glad I came across them early because I thought I was never going to get my money back from those fake online investment websites. you can also contact them via E-mail: kbhacktools@outlook.com or text them on Whatsapp: +1 (559) 593-1640
I am happy to confirm the success of my scam recovery. I am Marry Joel from Washington. Few weeks back, I invested a total of $160,000 Btc into a crypto investment trading program hoping to see my invested funds and profit grow with time. I was able to gain about $24,000 worth profit within a space of 1 month. My investment profit was improving with time until a few weeks back when I was denied access to my account. I had a total of about $285,000 worth Btc at that point and I wasn’t ready to lose it to being scammed. I had most of my savings in it and so I had to search for help online to get my funds back. I wasn’t going to take it easy so I linked up with an expert who goes by the name Smooth. He is a legit skillful hacker, and he helped me within a space of 5 working days, recover my scammed funds from a scam company. To my surprise, all my invested funds including profits were handed back to my safety. I really appreciate the effort put in to getting my funds back from scammers and I will recommend smoothrecovery3 @gmail.com for effective work done. Thank you.
ARE YOU A VICTIM OF INVESTMENT OR NFT SCAM? DO YOU WANT TO INVESTIGATE A CHEATING SPOUSE? DO YOU DESIRE CREDIT REPAIR (ALL BUREAUS)? SCHEDULE A MEETING WITH AN ETHICAL HACKER ASAP TO GET STARTED.
Let us show you the art of Ethical Hacking….!
EMERALD HACKS is a financial regulator, PRIVATE investigation and funds recovery body. We specialize in cases as regards ETHICAL HACKING, CRYPTOCURRENCY, FAKE INVESTMENT SCHEMES and RECOVERY SCAM. We are also experts in CREDIT REPAIR, we analyze what’s impacting your score.
All software tools needed to execute RECOVERIES from start to finish are available in stock.
Kindly NOTE that the available tools does NOT apply to CREDIT FIX.
Be ALERT to FALSE reviews and testimonies on the internet, the authors and perpetrators unite to form a syndicate.
Contact our team as soon as you can via the email address below to book a mail meeting with an ethical hacker.
emeraldhacks (.) org (@) gmail (.) com
Stay Safe out there !llll
I just have to introduce this hacker that I have been working with him on getting my credit score been boosted across the Equifax, TransUnion and Experian report. He made a lot of good changes on my credit report by erasing all the past eviction, bad collections and DUI off my credit report history and also increased my FICO score above 876 across my three credit bureaus report you can contatc him for all kind of hacks . Email him here via EMAIL SUPERIOR.HACK@GMAIL.COM or CALL/TEXT +1(716) 318-5536 or whatsapp +14106350697
my name is Hellen Johnson i,m from washington losing my job was a devastating blow, and just when I thought things couldn’t get any worse, I found myself grappling with an even more distressing situation. A week after being laid off, I fell victim to a ruthless cyber attack that wiped out my Bitcoin account, draining it of its £53,000 worth of digital currency. The feeling of betrayal and devastation was overwhelming, as I struggled to come to terms with the magnitude of the loss. The hackers had managed to gain access to my Bitcoin account credentials, leaving me feeling utterly vulnerable and exposed. It was a violation of not just my financial security, but also my sense of trust and privacy. The realization that my hard-earned savings had been plundered by faceless criminals left me reeling with shock and disbelief. In my darkest hour, a friend reached out with a glimmer of hope. They referred me to SMOOTH RECOVERY , a renowned asset recovery team specializing in combating cybercrime. With little left to lose, I reached out to them, sharing all the necessary information about the incident in the hopes of finding some semblance of justice amidst the chaos. To my amazement, the team at SMOOTH RECOVERY sprang into action with unwavering determination. Utilizing their advanced technology and expertise, they embarked on a relentless pursuit to track down the hackers and recover my stolen bitcoins. It was a race against time, but their commitment to helping victims like myself never wavered. Days turned into weeks as the investigation unfolded, each moment filled with uncertainty and anxiety. But finally, after what felt like an eternity, I received the news I had been desperately hoping for – SMOOTH RECOVERY had successfully traced the hackers and recovered my stolen bitcoins. The sense of relief and gratitude that washed over me was indescribable, as I realized that justice had finally been served. However, the assistance provided by smooth recovery didn’t end there. In addition to recovering my lost funds, they also helped me secure my digital access reliably, providing invaluable guidance and support to prevent future cyber attacks. Their dedication to their client’s safety and well-being is truly commendable, and I am forever grateful for their unwavering commitment to helping individuals like myself navigate the complexities of cybercrime. In the aftermath of this harrowing experience, I am filled with a newfound sense of resilience and determination. While the scars of the past may never fully heal, I take solace in knowing that I have the support of organizations like SMOOTH RECOVERY to help me rebuild and reclaim my financial freedom. Contact info; smoothrecovery3 @gmail.com